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Key Takeaways:

• Kid Cudi’s forthcoming memoir reveals a near-fatal cocaine overdose that occurred after his debut album’s launch.
• In the guide, he describes his suicidal ideas through the creation of Speedin’ Bullet 2 Heaven.
• It may even discover how Kid Cudi’s private battles replicate broader psychological well being points in Hip Hop.

Kid Cudi has at all times been clear about his struggles with dependancy and melancholy by way of his music. In the Cleveland rapper’s new autobiography, “Cudi: The Memoir,” the rapper, singer and actor is simply as weak in print as he’s been in music — even grimly detailing an almost deadly overdose.

On Tuesday (Aug. 5), GQ published an excerpt from the forthcoming 320-page memoir that recounted one in all his darkest moments: overdosing on cocaine and his subsequent suicide ideation.

“I was at peace with dying,” Kid Cudi wrote. “After doing more coke than I ever had in my life, I was losing all sense of what was real. I’d been alone in my New York apartment, crying for hours, listening to the Lykke Li song ‘Time Flies’ on repeat. It was a love song, but the melodies and her voice filled me with despair.”

Fortunately, Kid Cudi survived the overdose, which occurred a couple of yr after the discharge of his 2009 debut album, Man On The Moon: The End Of Day, and earlier than its comply with up, Man On The Moon II: The Legend Of Mr. Rager in November 2010. However, the cocaine abuse continued, and it wouldn’t be the final time he’d contemplated what he known as his “death wish.”

He wrote, “By the time I was writing Speedin’ Bullet 2 Heaven in 2015, I’d come back to that moment, but in a much more real way. We had rented a house in Big Sur to get the album done. After we’d finished a session, I’d be alone Googling exit bags. I was thinking about a way I could actually do it. I was plotting it. There’s a song at the end of Speedin’ Bullet where I say goodbye, and that was meant to be my final album. I was going to kill myself at the end of that album, or before it came out, or during that cycle. I was not planning to live that year. Not many people around me expected me to either.”

A decade later, it looks as if Kid Cudi has been working by way of his demons and has a lot extra life to stay. Mr. Rager’s new album, Free, is out on Aug. 22. Before then, nonetheless, his debut memoir will hit cabinets on Aug. 12 by way of Simon & Schuster.

If you or somebody you already know is battling ideas of suicide, assist is accessible 24/7. The 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline is a hotline for people in disaster or for these seeking to assist another person. To communicate with a skilled listener, name 988. Visit 988lifeline.org for disaster chat providers or for extra info.