Jonathan Majors remembers sharing his suicidal ideations along with his spouse, Meagan Good.

While on Kirk Franklin’s Den of Kings podcast, Majors says, “I was on suicide watch,” he shared. “There were times when… me and my girlfriend, me and my fiancé, and now me and my wife, we never spoke about it, but she never left me alone. I never let myself be alone.”

The Creed III actor shared that he “bluntly” instructed Good in regards to the depth of his psychological and emotional ache throughout one among his darkest intervals. “I told her I didn’t know if I wanted to be here anymore,” he admitted.

“The funny thing about that is that… I’ve learned that those things, and having an event happen to you and getting arrested or losing a job… You think that’s the thing that gets you, but it’s usually, I found for myself, it was something way, way, way, way back,” he mentioned. “I mean, drug overdose… Yep. Damn near lived on a roof, just plenty of—I don’t even smoke cigarettes—plenty of cigarettes and whiskey. I actually wrote a letter. I’ve done the whole thing and been there.”

Majors was joined by by Kevin Fredericks, NLE Choppa, Ray J, and Dr. Jay Barnett, and was counseled for his “courage.”

“But we are all born into a society in which our narrative as Black men, we’re born into a narrative that puts us downhill,” he continued. “And then you end up having to pretend that you’re somebody that you’re not to get through certain doors that I got through.”